me: you were so kind to me hap, I really gonna miss you...
hap: no man, this is the way I treat all my friends.
me: yeah you are so kind. hope to compensate some day.
hap: come on man, we'd got good memories. I wish I could do better.
me: ...you remember this magnum I bought last week from that nasty gippsy?
hap: yeah man, don't be angry about it, it's gone. you're eyes are changin' man. be cool...
me: I'm OK... I'll be fine
hap: yeah calm down pal
me: you remember you told me it doesn't worth it?
hap: yeah it was a little bit expensive, but just relax and forget about it...
me: you bastered mother fucker, you smell like a stinky pig...
hap: yeah man, you're right, calm down and drive. the train will leave soon
me: yeah you're right. I need some rest

my blog, is my mind's trash can. whenever I dig my past, whenever I whisper my dreams and whenever I feel dep! God's big creature is me. the big ME!
I can imagine in my blog, thousand even millions of eyes stared at me, I can hear the voice of audience, clapping for my terrific poem or lecture, I feel selfish when they call my name, they cry it loud!
roses are everywhere on the scene, so why I have to lie myself?? it's the big ME!

you know if I had even a cock's IQ and a camel's body, it was the big ME! I persist on the big cause I have thanked god million times for it!

God has created butterflies to let Maryam Heidarzadeh for bullshit poetry, and to learn me life is:
live half like a worm, useless creature just eating and growing,
almost the other half, live in a self made prison without any objection,
the few left days as a butterfly...
Lord thank you for let me think at least.

The worst thing in this world, is to know a lot. a lot about me makes you rush to get rid of me, a lot about poletics, you're a dead man! a lot about physiatrics, ruins your joy life. a lot about life drives you mad.
Lord, thank you for not letting me know more
Lord, thank you for hiding my sins
thank you for hiding master keys
for sleep, rest...
denial

- recovery section please, it's really urgent...
- do I know you? yes you are the mother fucker who killed my friend, bang, poof!
- the police is here, yellow cabs are messing around on my mind. you can't park here negger...
- amphetamine is restricted for virgins, decrease your dose and jerk off or pop the funny cherry
- she's running still and takes more victims, get out of the rail pal
- boarder is close right now, you may departure tomorrow early morning, please transmit the amount
- we will, we will rock you... early tomorrow morning.

I sell my past to be able to sell my today,
I sell my today to live till tomorrow,
I sell my future to live better today,
we sell all our livings for more safer death...

Today is the middle of Sha'baan. copy the code bellow and sleep the rest of the day

html
body
%
dim salavat
salavat="اللهم صل علي محمد و آل محمد"
for i = 1 to 1000
response.write("for Mahdi's health: " & salavat)
next
%
/body
/html